After describing the cost of following him and carrying
one’s cross, Jesus laid out the meaning of possibly the best life one could
live out. That is to save one’s own soul and, in turn, to be used by God for
others to do the same. Jesus repeats the same question in Mark 8:36 and Luke
9:25. Deeply sunken into this life-changing inspiration, it slowly but surely
dawned on me that dedicating my life for soul-winning would be more meaningful
than cherishing my petty ambition to pursue a comfortable life. It was my initial desire to somehow make good money, retire
early, enjoy the rest of my life by traveling the world, and hopefully live
healthily and die later without sickness. When this grand “kingdom dream” was
incubated in me, my so-called American dream seemed so tiny and fractional. The confession of C. T. Studd
often made my heart resonate in those early days.
If Jesus Christ be God and died for me, then no sacrifice
can be too great for me to make for Him.
I knew I would be answerable to Jesus on those disturbing
and unavoidable issues. The spiritual honeymoon period slowly faded away. The
testing period of my faith and commitment arrived. I had to choose between the
American dream and the kingdom dream. The Lord kept wrestling with me about the
purpose of life in those days. My existence seemed so tiny and insignificant in
this universe, like sand on the seashore that comes today and will be swept
away tomorrow by the waves of history. I did not want to waste my life, which
Jesus purchased with his sacrificial love. Would my life be counted worthwhile?
Would I have lived a life of positive influence on others? Would my life be
pleasing to God? What would the life God wants from me look like? Such
meaningful questions lingered in my soul. The Lord Jesus guided me again with
this scripture.
The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to
destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have it more
abundantly. (John 10:10)
There are people whose lives are lived to steal, kill, and
destroy others. People are hurting because of their life. Jesus was challenging
me to pursue the life of following his footsteps. I was challenged again to
make my goal-post
a life that makes other people live an abundant life and that, in turn, makes
this world a better place. At the prevailing thought that I’m renting this life
from Christ with a lease that expires in about eighty years, I knew I’d have to wisely set a course of my life. What would
remain after my time on earth is over? A deep contemplation led me to figure
that I’d be able to leave two things behind: first, the cause of Christ, and
second, people I’ve influenced for it. I had to rearrange my priorities in line
with these criteria. Finance, education, time, relationship—everything had to
be aligned to this new worldview. That was the clincher. Surprisingly, it
wasn’t quite difficult. Once this worldview was engraved in my soul, the rest
of the pieces of life details came to find their matches to complete the puzzle
of life.
Of what use is money in the hand of a fool, since he has no
desire to get wisdom? (Proverbs 17:16)
The Lord knew that only dreams with eternal value would
bequeath the true meaning of life and produce indestructible happiness in the
process. It is no wonder that “we are materially so much better off than we
were 50 years ago, but we’re not one iota happier,” said Chris Peterson, a
psychology professor at the University of Michigan. (Farino, 2011) I chose to pursue the
kingdom dream. I sensed God’s tugging to dedicate my life to serve in full-time
ministry. I was saturated by the kingdom rationales. God’s faithful seasonal
leadings toward it have won me over. A life dedicated to making disciples of
the nations has been worth it. It is worth it indeed. Besides, I’ve been happy
to walk on this path for well over three decades by now. As I wished earlier,
people of far and near have found a better life on account of me. Most of all,
God is magnified in my life. This is the life I dreamt about.
Following Christ and making disciples of all nations is
God’s command. Those who obey get to find genuine meaning and happiness in
life. That is God’s unchanging promise.
“If you, Israel, will return, then return to me," declares the Lord. "If you put your detestable idols out of my sight and no
longer go astray, and if in a truthful, just and righteous way you swear, ‘As
surely as the Lord lives,’ then the nations will invoke blessings by him and in
him they will boast.” (Jeremiah 4:1–3)
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* This article is excerpted from [Disciples of the Nations: Multiplying Disciples and Churches in Global Contexts]. To purchase and read the rest of the book, please visit Amazon or Wipf & Stock Publishers.